January 18, 2012 Wednesday
Well, whaddaya know! It’s already Wednesday! Although, it’s already 12:59 in the morning of Thursday here, this entry still falls on my Wednesday blog. Anyhoooo, today I was able to finish what my mom wanted me to do. Around 4pm I was supposed to go to my old office to get all my stuff when my tire got flat. So I had to go back home and let someone fix it. Anyway, went to church afterwards for rehearsal and went to my lola’s place in QC coz it was her birthday.
There was lechon and as usual, I ate a lot. Geeeeeez. And that’s someone who’s really really really trying to lose weight. Oh well. Anyway, I had a long talk today with my good friend Hazel Castro. She’s my college friend in UST. I was just confiding in her what I’m feeling regarding my ex.
This is really confusing. I wonder if he’s also confused as I am. It’s just weird. Ever since we saw each other last January 1, I really can’t take my mind off of him. UGH!!! I’m gonna kill myself for letting myself be in this position again. The last thing I need right now is someone from my past to be coming back again. Let alone, someone whom I really loved before.
Why? Why did this happen? I believe in the quote “Everything happens for a reason.” WELL, HELL YEAH! I wanna know the reason now! Why did fate let this happen again?! Or is it just me? Maybe I’m letting it happen in the first place?!!
Wait. After finding out that he broke up with his girlfriend, after a few weeks, he added me in facebook. After that, came January 1. We saw each other at a friend’s place. After the party, he invited me to go with him to a bar just for a couple of drinks. From there we got to talk. Got each other’s number. The next day I saw that he followed me in twitter. I followed back. Then after that, no communication at all. Then came January 15, 2012. 4:30 in the morning, I saw my phone with one missed call. From him. I didn’t text back. I did the next day tho. Around 1pm in the afternoon I texted him why he called. He texted back saying that he’s in the BF area, wondering if I’m there as well. Then little did I know, we ended up having coffee.
The bad part is, I ENJOYED OUR COFFEE DATE.
Well, it wasn’t a date tho. But whatever. I enjoyed it. And I think he did as well.
Anyway, this happened last Sunday not today, so why am I even making a big deal?!!! He’s not even texting. Nor calling.
UGH!!! I hate myself.
Anyway, the end of the story. You know what?! Maybe it’s just me. SHIT. This has got to STOP.
STARTING TODAY! I WILL STOP THINKING OF HIM AND EVEN STOP MAKING A BIG FUSS OUT OF WHAT HAPPENED LAST SUNDAY!
Today was a good and day and I shouldn’t let my ex ruin it.
By the way, here is a photo of me and my favorite LOLA. It’s her birthday today. I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLA!!!!! *KISS*
– L.A. –